Is it doomed to be this way????

Yesterday I was thinking ’bout a girl that was my first love. I was very much in love with her,she too,we were crazy about each other and most of all,best friends. But we don’t talk anymore leave out the prospect of remaining friends. We broke up much ago and after that we’ve both moved on.

But I was just wondering, is it possible to have loved/been in love with someone you’re better off without? Does that make any sense? My life is less stressful now and I feel like I have so much more freedom without jealousy of a girlfriend in the way. But then again, isn’t the person you’re in love with supposed to make life better for you?

It just sounds like an oxymoron to me. But it makes sense from experience, you know? So my question is, does it make sense to have honest love for someone that you realize you’re better off without?

I have failed???

Rule me no more
I control my mind
I will not give myself to you again
Weakness is pain
Your strength is twisting me
I've never felt so helpless and alone

I have failed

Nowhere to turn
There's growth in pain I feel it
I pray to God it's not too late for me
Hard to believe on man could lose to such
All that I've lost can never be conceived

I have failed