An year has come to an end..

So, 2010 is upto a close.
This year can be seen as another important milestone in my life,this year is the one that taught too much to me.

the others being 1987,2000,2003,2005,2006 and 2007

So,where do I start ??

Hmm, Ok, Let me start with what Iam now a first year student at the National Insurance Academy School of Management,Pune.Insurance I know wasn't my job, but man,i got used to it.

This was also the year I completed my graduation,memorable in anyone’s career isn’t it.

2010 was a year I understood myself fully. I have realized my strengths and weaknesses and now I know what I really want to achieve in my life.

This was a year where I had set on a journey to b-schools,got calls from vaious renowned colleges and studying in one such. But after my experiences since joining NIASoM, I now know, something really good is waiting for me just round the corner.

And most of all,this been a year when I fell in love,true love.What started as a mere timepass crush overcome my ego and became my worst weakness.Man,she's still on my mind but i know,i am not at hers.And may be the feeling of my love towards her has turned into agony,may be i just despise her but still,I do respect love.Whatever be,they say time heals every wound,lets see.

And yes,i got to make new friends,though not as congenial as my graduation friends-akeev,abhishek,jack,anurag to name a few.Again its just been 5 months into niasom and things will change.


Other mundane things I did this year-




1. Started loving Physics once again.
2. filled up the form of MPPSC and onto fill UPSC with the same zeal and vigour i had during PMTs.
3. Got the "who the hell cares" attitude.
4. Visited major cities of India for the first time in my life.
5. For the first time stayed in a hostel.

And many more..

So,2010 I am about to say you good bye,thanks for what you have been to me and what you taught to me.

Is it doomed to be this way????

Yesterday I was thinking ’bout a girl that was my first love. I was very much in love with her,she too,we were crazy about each other and most of all,best friends. But we don’t talk anymore leave out the prospect of remaining friends. We broke up much ago and after that we’ve both moved on.

But I was just wondering, is it possible to have loved/been in love with someone you’re better off without? Does that make any sense? My life is less stressful now and I feel like I have so much more freedom without jealousy of a girlfriend in the way. But then again, isn’t the person you’re in love with supposed to make life better for you?

It just sounds like an oxymoron to me. But it makes sense from experience, you know? So my question is, does it make sense to have honest love for someone that you realize you’re better off without?

I have failed???

Rule me no more
I control my mind
I will not give myself to you again
Weakness is pain
Your strength is twisting me
I've never felt so helpless and alone

I have failed

Nowhere to turn
There's growth in pain I feel it
I pray to God it's not too late for me
Hard to believe on man could lose to such
All that I've lost can never be conceived

I have failed